Since it’s National Mental Health Awareness month I thought I’d share my story about dealing with both anxiety and depression. So if this something that will have a negative effect on you please don’t read any further. I’ve been dealing with both of these mental health issues for a long time, close to 10 years. The reality is when I was a kid and as I was growing up, I dealt with things that can be difficult to handle. But for me it didn’t stop when I was a kid continued until I was a preteen and into my teenage years. I would talk to my mom about what bothered, me but I still couldn’t quite tell her what was wrong with me. I was never really taught about depression. I didn’t know what was considered the symptoms of being depressed or the symptoms of what a panic attack disorder was. Because of this I didn’t know how to deal with it or that it was ok to tell my mom or friends about how i was feeling. I was scared they would think I was making it up or blame that they would themselves for my issues. So I came to the decision that it would just be easier to not tell anyone. But not telling anyone hurt me even more and tore me apart inside. During my senior year of high school I ended up having a mental breakdown. I couldn’t focus on anything, my grades began to drop, eating became difficult and my life felt even more lonely and worse then it did before. I however got through it because, luckily, I had a best friend. Thankfully we still are best friends to this day. (Hi Maria!) She would help me get though my episodes along with my mom. At first she didn’t completely get it because she didn’t go through any of these problems herself, but when she saw how much I was suffering she tried her best to help. I want you to know that, even though it seems like is doesn’t and, it will get better. I still have my days where it seems like I’m stagnant. But then I remember that I have my family, my friends, and my dog Pluto with for me. While the world around me may seem to be falling apart, I’ll always have them with me to help pull me up and make that things aren’t always as bad as they seem. If you want to hear some of the things that I do that help with my anxiety let me know.